Happy Halloween!

I am so excited this is the beginning of "Firsts" for Logan. First Halloween - what a big deal! :) I adore all the holidays and especially the fall/winter ones so I am super excited he is here and can partake (at least with the costume - not candy) this year. But of course I wouldn't let him miss out on the yummy candy - oooooh no! I plan on eating his share and mine to make up and he will get a little sweet taste in his evening bottle. Isn't that what Motherhood is ALL about? Making sacrifices for your little one? ;)

Logan in his pumpkin sleeper - tooooo presh!

And he is D.O.N.E.

My sweet little Monkey!

love this baby boy!

He went from cute and sweet to sprawled out on the bed kicking his little legs - silly boy

And once again, he is DONE.

Another day we took pics -

Happy Pumpkin!

and yet again - he is OVER it :)

Of course I had to record his first Halloween - a sweet video to share with you all. I am playing his Favorite toy right now, his Sing Along Tunes.

Tired, Exhausted, Wiped...

Today I am a walking Zombie. We had a rough night last night. It started off really well - Logan went down at 9:30 pm which is wonderful! We started the night routine of reading, bath, feed, swaddle, feed, and bed at 8:50 pm. Typically Logan doesn't go down until after 10 pm - most of the time its 11 pm or so. I want to start trying to get him to go to sleep earlier since most books say babies really need/want to go to sleep in between 7-8:30 pm. My goal for the next 4 weeks is to get him to go to sleep by 8:30 pm.

He is getting a little too big for the small swaddle blanket so Trey swaddled him in the new larger 14-22 pounds swaddle blanket. It fit great at the beginning of the night - it seemed a little big, but really it fit just right a tad on the big side. He couldn't move his arms to get out of the swaddle so that was wonderful! Off to bed he went and I pumped then joined him at 11 pm. Well - my body woke me up every hour through the night (I guess to check on him to make sure he was breathing and the swaddle was in place) I had to get up to pump at 4 am and went back to sleep by 4:45 am. At 5:15 I woke up and looked over at Logan and couldn't see his face! I jumped out of bed and realized he worked his hands so much that the swaddle blanket was over his head! OMG I freaked out and quickly unfastened the Velcro to make sure he was okay. He was thank goodness! But I had to re swaddle him and each time I did he kept working his hands to his face because I couldn't get a good tight close on the back. He finally woke up and wanted a bottle at 5:45 am. (keep in mind - he never wakes up before 8:30 am every day - most days he sleeps until 9 or sometimes 10!) I took that swaddle off him and put the small one back on so he could go back to sleep which he finally did - just in time for my alarm to go off for me to get ready for work. UGH....


So I had a good cry and was still upset when Trey got home at 7:30 am from work. Yes, I had a pity-party all for myself and it felt good. I know, I know. It's irrational. Lets be honest, its not like he was up screaming all night. Or even screaming during the swaddle process. He cried yes, but once he got that bottle he drank it and was fine. So why am I sooooo upset? I can't explain it. I blame it on my "crazy mommy hormones" and my deep desire to get 9-12 hours of good sleep every night like I did pre-baby. Of course I haven't had that good sleep since he's been born, but my body and brain still search for it. When I don't get enough sleep or quality sleep (5-6 hours) I am emotionally effected. Physically yes, I am exhausted too, but I don't handle it well emotionally. It is a mental thing. Totally. I need to change my perspective.

So, here I am . At work. Completely pooped. Trying to keep my eyes open. I could have another pity party for myself but I will refrain for now. :)

My two favorite guys

Logan in his night routine...

It is almost Halloween - I can't believe it! Crazy how November is already here, not to mention my birthday month - and I just looked on my calendar to see my new age and it terrified me! 1 more year until the BIG 30 and I almost fell off my chair. WHOA.

Look at that sweet face - so precious!!

Its still weird to see pictures of us and know he is MINE. I still think I am just babysitting sometimes. Its crazy to think that I have a son :)

He just adores the baby Einstein dvds - he watches them for 20 minutes sometimes! It is also part of our night routine to let him calm down and quietly watch a dvd before bottle and bed.

Sophie taking her place near his feet. She thinks he is her baby :)

Logan playing with his new toy!

We use this A LOT at the house - gripe water to cure hiccups. He gets them several times a day. Just like his mama!

I wanted to remember his favorites and right now they are these two toys

and his sing along tunes

He holds his hands like this all the time. Too cute!

I will leave you with this last photo of what looks like him throwing up a gang sign. Oh Dear.

Logan is straight gangsta.

Mmmmm...Tasty Fingers

Guess who found his fingers? Yummy yummy! Logan's new obsession is chewing on his hands and fingers which is great for self soothing. Yay! He still won't take a paci. Usually we try to offer his wubbanub soothie before a bottle to soothe but recently he cries more because he knows its not a bottle. He has zero interest unless he is completely full, but then he won't keep it in his mouth for very long before spitting it out. Poor Gus (his wubbie). We tried dude, we tried. :)

After bath time - loving those fingers!

Soph has a new toy - which she promptly ripped a hole in about 5 minutes later. Lovely.

Daddy and Son Time!

We cannot believe he is 3 months old!!! Actually 3 months and a couple of weeks - but still. Growing and growing...

Loving his sing along tunes

Grabbing Morty the Moose

If its not fingers or hands its burp cloths and lovies. He can't get enough of them :)

Ready to go to eat!

I realized I never post any pics of me and Logan because I don't have any pics! How sad! I am always the picture taker - so we tried to snap some cute pics with his Halloween onesie that says "I'm Batty for Mommy". Lauren gave it to him - too cute!

Of course he wouldn't dare look at the camera - only 1 photo he is looking at it - geesh! That just means he and I need to take more photos :)

Look at that pouty lip - so sad!

Watching Daddy cook - how neat!

I am so stinkin excited!! I decided to try and put him in the crib for nap time, swaddled of course, and see how it went. All the books/articles say at 4 months they can definitely be on a schedule and by then they can try to self soothe to go back to sleep. So we are almost to 4 months and I wanted to try now since he does so well swaddled at night. It went GREAT!!!! Yesterday he was so tired from our outing that I knew he would pass out. We fed him, swaddled him, fed a little more and out he went. He slept in the crib for 2 1.5 hours!!! HOORAY!!

Trey and I kept staring at the video monitor making sure he was still breathing (okay actually I kept staring at the monitor while Trey shook his head.) haha - I can't help it, its either that or creep in his room every 5 minutes to watch his little chest move up and down. luckily on the monitor you can see it! :)

So, today I work MOD shift which is 5 pm - 11 pm (yuck I know) but for his first nap we swaddled him and put him in the crib. And the crying began. It took 3 different tries of letting him cry for 2-3 minutes, then taking him out of the crib, feeding him a little more, he passes out in our arms, we put him down again, and he wakes up and cries again. But like I said, only 3 tries of that and finally he stayed down for an hour. Trey put him down for his second nap once I left for work and he is still sleeping! YIPPEE!!!!! I can't begin to explain how exciting that is for me. It's like the best successful feeling ever - it far outweighs any successful moment I had in the past. Welcome to Mommyhood right?